It seems as if I'm on the right track with wanting to take things slowly. It seems as if that's what I'm supposed to do. I have received the right thoughts and ideas in the right moments to know now what to do to not fall back to old patterns and act as if I'm worth less than the other person ! I seemed to put everyone always on a throne and completely forget what's good for myself. This time seems different, I have enough space and time to think things through, observe and analyze. I've enjoyed single life and it felt as if it just started to become normality when he came along. Life teased me but I'm not trying to let this feeling of freedom being taken away from me already. I can't let myself go through this again. I can't let myself down. Tomorrow I'll be back in the city and I've definitely anticipated being back in my familiar environment to continue healing and fixing.
For sure I will miss the sun and definitely the ocean, but I miss my friends and I'm looking forward to partying again and just getting a normal schedule. Working out, eating normal and resting my head before school starts back ! 2017 has really been given me hell and heaven so far, but as we all know, light drives away darkness ! I'm ready to start this new chapter. I'm ready to finally getting treated and also treat myself the way I deserve to be treated! Shit, I'm seriously ready to finally finally finally be myself again without doubt, without fear and without regrets !
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