Days like today what can I say? I passionately hate them. I hate them so much, that if today was a person, I'd wish it was never born. Days like today are the ones that always remind me how replaceable I am, how easy to forget and that other people's lives wouldn't be much different without me. Wow, how depressing. It's really annoying that these type of thoughts keep coming back to me. I really wanna believe they aren't true, but they come back, all the time. It never fails.
I just hate being alone, can't really stand it. When you try desperately to reach people and it seems as if they simply don't notice: when you even check your phone to see if the messages arrived, because not hearing back from literally anyone is really weird and awkward. But then you notice it's not technologies fault and there's only you to blame left behind. I am dreaming of a life where I don't have to feel this way anymore ! I am dreaming of a life where those feeling just stop occurring. Saturday night. What the actual fuck.
