New beginnings 1.2

Going far away right after you meet your person truly sucks, you don't know where you stand yet, you don't have that person figured out in a way where you feel safe. Past experiences are burned in your heart and brain that you see every little thing as a warning sign. Truth is, things are going so fast or lets say they would go so fast if we could let it go it's course but god seemed to intend it otherwise and stopped it, let us suffer for a bit, let lust and loneliness build up. I feel as if I'm dying, I feel as if I'm losing him already. 5 more days until I get to have a complete weekend. I'm just praying that he won't get tired of me til then, praying that he won't forget that great, breathtaking evening we had when we met. I'm crazy about him and someday I will hopefully get to show him exactly that !